Then Let Me Go

Title: Then Let Me Go

Author: Tam Chronin

Note: This takes place between the RAJ T-Day RR and the NFR RR. For background please go to the Sith Chicks archive. Finally...Tam and Vader smut once again! That means this is rated NC-17, if you can't handle that don't read it!

I didn't have much to pack, as a Padawan I had limited room to keep things and so had never felt the need to hang on to physical mementos. I didn't leave anything behind though, this vacation with Darth Vader could only be seen as a resignation to the council. Master Yoda would never understand and never forgive me. I almost hesitated as I took one last look around my room, but I knew that it was too late to change my mind. I wanted to leave this place and be with my lover more than I wanted to be a Jedi.

With the party going on at Ziggy's there weren't many people hanging around the temple, so I didn't have to pause for good-byes. Before I knew it I was at the spaceport gazing at the luxury ship that would take me away forever from my past. I was ready for it though, the hidebound Jedi Council was not what I wanted to deal with for the rest of my life.

I almost ran the rest of the way to the ship on the platform, giddy with the feeling of freedom. My ticket was taken and I was shown to the suite Vader and I would share. No expense was spared, as the Emperor's right-hand-man Vader was the biggest VIP on the ship. I couldn't help but be impressed with the accommodations after the life I had become accustomed to as a Padawan.

The door opened behind me as I took in the atmosphere of the room. I knew it was him, his dark presence was unmistakable. It flowed over and around me like twilight on a summer evening. He was powerful, strong, and would protect me and teach me. I wanted to taste of that power again, his command of the Force alone was enough to make me weak since so few people were stronger than me. But that wasn't all I wanted.

There was silence as we looked at each other, words not needed. We were running away together, abandoning commitments and ignoring responsibilities. It was deliciously naughty to me, the girl who had been the model of perfection around the temple until only a few months ago. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, smiling.

"You won't be needing those plain robes ever again, Tam." The brown Jedi robe I had grown so attached to slipped off my shoulders with a gesture from Lord Vader. The ripple in the Force from that simple move quickened my pulse. I had only one thought on my mind, and I sent an image of what I desired to him. "First we should settle in, I must make sure everything is set up in my chamber correctly before we take off. The consequences if I do not...."

"I understand, my Lord." I smiled up at him, bowing slightly and giving him a suggestive glance. I felt him smile within my mind, and an invisible hand caressed my ass as I turned away to my room. As soon as the door closed behind me I leaned against the wall and virtually melted, the anticipation distracting me fully.

I didn't leave the cabin very often once we left. On occasion I ate in the dining hall, but I always did so alone if I chose to leave. The beauty and luxury weren't enough to drag me away from Lord Vader, my reason for leaving behind all I had known. One day though I was away, walking through the halls as I took time to think things through once again.

How far down the Dark Path did I really want to follow my lover? Did I have it in me to turn completely? Was that what Vader wanted of me? Every time I left his presence I was besieged by doubt and confusion. Was it enough that I had left the Jedi and their way of life behind, or did he want more from me? He didn't push me at all now that he had me to himself and the confusion gripped me with icy fingers.

The further we were from Coruscant the further he seemed from me emotionally. He was distracted by something, and the Force was so strong with him that I had no chance of finding out what it was. I found myself before our suite's doors and sighed, trying to put it all behind me.

The atmosphere in the room was heavy with darkness as I walked in. Vader was on his knees before the holotransmitter and I heard him say, "Yes, my Master." The image of a man in black robes faded from view. The darkness lifted but a little bit and I stepped inside with trepidation. This was the Dark Lord I had met the first time, not the conflicted creature who treated me like a glass figurine and gazed upon my pregnant belly with almost religious awe. This was a man who would kill with the slightest provocation. This was a man who had crushed his friends and enemies alike to gain power. This was a man who would let nothing stand in his way. Even if that something was someone he loved.

A shiver went down my spine. I felt both repulsed and drawn to him on some fundamental level I didn't quite understand. I wanted to run from the room to save myself and my unborn daughter from a danger only hinted at.

Vader slowly stood, turning to face me. He towered over me, overpowering by his physical presence as well as his psychic one. I could feel his eyes upon me, taking my measure in his new frame of mind. I trembled a little inside, a little fear feeding another, stronger emotion. Lust. I could almost feel his smile behind the mask as he felt the emotions flow from me. My knees quivered as I felt his emotions swell in response.

"Come here," his deep voice commanded. When I stood before him he put a black gloved hand on my shoulder. At his signal I went to my knees and gazed up at him from this new vantage. As his hands reached to undo his belt a smile slid comfortably across my lips. I reached to help him remove the impediments between his penis and my mouth. As soon as his member was free from his tight leather pants I grasped it in my hands, rubbing up and down his length. All the thoughts that had driven me from him were gone as I reached around and grabbed his ass with both hands and brought myself closer to him.

His penis pulsed with his rapid heartbeat. My tongue snaked out to taste his flesh in a teasing graze. Small licks, up and down his long shaft, then I suddenly opened my mouth wide and wrapped my lips around his head. I sucked gently as I stroked his glans with the tip of my tongue. A little bit at a time I rocked back and forth, bringing his member a little more into my mouth at a time. I heard the leather of his gloves as his hands reached around my head and he wrapped his fingers in my hair. He began to guide me, forcing more into my mouth, faster, longer strokes. The saltiness of his precome filled my mouth and the smooth texture of his flesh across my tongue thrilled me as nothing in my mouth ever had before. I began to lose myself in the sensation, welcoming the pressure of his hands guiding me so that I knew best how to please him.

He suddenly pulled me back, trembling as his hands tugged painfully at my hair. "Not yet," he growled, regaining control. Without letting go he raised his hands, pulling me to my feet with a cry. One hand released me as he brushed my eyes closed with gentle fingers. I could immediately see his piercing blue eyes burning within my mind and he bent to ravage my mouth with a searing kiss. His hands tore at my clothes impatiently, ripping through cloth that wouldn't easily be removed. He then lifted me as easily as a child and took me into his room where his meditation chamber had been set up.

The chamber closed around us and I could feel the concentrated oxygen fill the small room. He sat me down upon his chair as he removed his armor. It was the first time I saw his true body and part of me was horrified to see the scars that covered him, but another part of me was thrilled that finally there would be no barriers separating our flesh. I wanted to weep at the sight of his face and how the beauty had been destroyed there, but before I could think he buried it between my thighs and began stroking my lips with his tongue.

I moaned, melting at the touch of his hot mouth on my wet pussy. His tongue opened me up, slipping between my lips and sliding up and across my clit. Fire shot up and down my spine, making me shiver and gasp at the contact. His hands were caressing me all over as his tongue danced across my most sensitive flesh. This was real, no trick of the Force, and the reality was more powerful than I could have believed. He licked my clit harder, then sucked on it and licked some more until the fire spread to my entire body and I came hard, quivering and screaming as my back arched against my will. I tried not to gasp in the oxygen saturated room, but it was almost too much to ask. I went limp across the chair for a moment, moaning my satisfaction.

He lifted me easily, standing and turning us around, then he sat and draped me across my lap. "It's hard to take, isn't it?" he surprised me by asking out loud. His voice sounded weak and raspy without his mask.

"Don't say it." He cut me off and placed a finger across my lips. ::Just show me.:: he sent, closing his mouth over mine in a searing kiss. His mouth then moved down, biting my neck in a way that made me quiver inside. One hand caressed my right breast, teasing my nipple erect, and his other hand reached around and cupped my ass.

I wrapped my legs around him carefully, trying not to let my growing belly get in the way. I settled myself down upon his large member, closing my eyes as I reveled in the feel of filling my deepest recesses. He filled me perfectly and I moved very slowly up and down his length to feel every inch of him sliding in and out of me. It was perfection, we were connected in the most fundamental sense, and nothing was between us for the first time. I captured his mouth in another kiss, feeling my insides turn to mush. I rocked against him, moving at just the right angle and hitting my sweet spot each time. I couldn't hold in my moans of pleasure and gasps of delight.

He moved the hand that had been at my breast and slid it down between us. His thumb pressed against my clit with almost bruising force as I rocked harder. It almost drove me out of my skin, the sensation pain and pleasure at the harsh pressure. The feeling built as I built up speed and my cries grew louder and echoed on the close walls. I came hard, losing the rhythm for a moment as my muscles clenched hard. I began rocking harder again as soon as I regained control, and my second orgasm came faster and lasted longer. We held each other desperately as I found the rhythm one last time and we built upon the feeling that passed between us. Harder and faster we moved together until he exploded within me and my own orgasm flowed through me like the roar of the ocean.

He sat back hard and I collapsed against his chest. It felt so right to have our skin pressed together. I gasped, trying to regain my equilibrium, but I grew more and more lightheaded. Vader sat me back and looked deep in my eyes. He placed a hand against my belly and I could feel him commune with my unborn daughter. For some reason I thought he was telling her goodbye, but I quickly shoved that thought aside.

I kissed him one last time and left, lightheaded from more than the atmosphere in his meditatiion chamber. I somehow made it to my room and collapsed on my bed, all my dark thoughts behind me.

~~~
Part 3

"I want to see this planet, I'm tired of being cooped up on the ship."

Vader merely waved a hand dismissively, not even turning from the computer
display before him.

"Well?"

He looked up for a second. "Have fun."

He was unusually closed to me, showing me no emotion at all. Something was
obviously wrong, something that had been building for the last few days,
but I couldn't breech that wall. "That's it? 'Have fun'?"

"What did you expect, a goodbye kiss?" A shadow of a thought intruded upon
my mind--a kiss would be a useless gesture with the mask in the way. It
irritated him. Then even that hint of his presence withdrew. "I will not
leave with you, I have things to do." He turned away from me and it felt as
if I didn't exist anymore.

More and more withdrawn every day...I didn't know what I could do anymore.
For my own sanity I had to take a break.

A few breathing exercises later I walked off the ship and put it all behind
me to have all the fun Corellia could offer. It was a wonderful day, full
of shopping and sightseeing and sampling the cuisine. I decided early on
that there’s something a bit odd about a big ‘ol pregnant lady flirting,
otherwise I’d have done plenty of that just to get back at Vader for his
neglect. I still packed as much pleasure as I could into that day.

When I got back is when all hell broke loose, though not the way I was
expecting.

“Ma’am, can I see your papers?”

“Of course,” I replied, handing them over.

He took a long look, checked with his datapad, looked me over, then slowly
shook his head. “I’m sorry, but could you step this way?”

“What’s this about?”

“Just step over here and we’ll have a nice long talk.”

“I don’t want a nice long talk, I want to get on that ship.”

“I’m afraid you can’t, ma’am. Your ticket and passport have both been
revoked.”

“That’s bullshit! Listen, you get Darth Vader and he’ll tell you“

“Ma’am, it was Lord Vader who signed the orders. I’m afraid you can not
board the ship.”

I stopped in my verbal tracks and looked at the man who was telling me that
my lover had just grounded me indefinitely. I could feel the blood drain
from my face as my heart dropped to my feet. I tried to shake my head,
tried to say no, tried to tell him that there must be a mistake, but I was
frozen to the spot. The man’s voice buzzed in my ear, saying things about
accommodations and getting things straightened out and I think he asked me
if I needed medical attention. I’m not sure what I answered, everything
went hazy and then the world went gray, then charcoal, then black.

I woke up in a comfortable bed in a sterile room. Hospital, of course,
what else would they do with a pregnant lady if she faints. The chrono on
the wall told me that the ship had taken off hours ago and that I was stuck.

***

Tam looked down at her hands, clasped on what was left of her lap. “That’s
all there was until a few days ago. I had plenty of credits, I got a place
to stay when I left the hospital, and I waited. About a week ago I was
cleared to return to Coruscant, no explanations or excuses. I had heard
that you were opening your business soon near Ziggy’s, so I came
here.” She smiled, but tears threatened to escape at the slightest pretext.

“You should have called, something, I would have made it all better
sweetie. What else was I gonna do with all these smugglers before I
opened, watch them play sabbac?”

The tears poured suddenly down, released finally. “Gods, Mary. I wanted
to, but I was ashamed. I turned my back on everyone and everything I had
for someone who just tossed me aside for no reason at all.”

I moved beside her, pressing the side of my pregnant belly against hers
while I pulled her to my shoulder so she could have a good cry. We were
like that until she could collect herself and I knew that some of the
poison had been bled from her soul.

“Tam, I have a few things to do. You rest up here while I do them, and
I’ll be back in an hour or so.” She nodded wearily and smiled as I walked
from the room.

Down the stairs and to the Valentine’s Day party still in swing. I frowned
for a second, then decided that it was about time to break things up. I
walked over to the band and made a kill sign as I grabbed a microphone.

“Okay, we have one last party planned for the evening. It’s played like
Simon Says, but since I’m not Simon the game is Pregnant Lady Says,
okay? If not, it will be Boss and Owner Says.”

Smiles and talking from the crowd, the general gist being that Pregnant
Lady Says would be fine.

“Pregnant Lady Says: Put your hands in the air. Now put them
down. Pregnant Lady didn’t say! Okay, that was just for practice…now here
we go.

“Pregnant Lady Says: It’s time to go home so Pregnant Lady can get enough
sleep for the busy day ahead! I hope you had fun, but it really is
time. Sorry, I know, I’m being a party-pooper, but paying customers only,
and only in the rooms now. Thank you, and don’t make too much noise.”

There were a lot of protests, but it didn’t matter.

Patricia walked over frowning. “We had everything under control, we“ She
broke off, really looking at me for the first time since I came back
down. “You look terrible! What’s wrong?”

“I’m afraid I have some things I need to do, something just came up.”

“What? Does this have anything to do with your friend showing up?”

“Oh yah! I’m gonna go kill me some Sith Lord…nobody hurts my friends!”

~~~~~

end…for now